178. I suck. Truly, I do.

I don't know how many weeks it's been since my last post. I'm too depressed to even look. The day I found out I was 169, was the day we decided to go to some huge buffet for some reason. I foolishly thought I'd be able to cheat that ONE DAY, and then continue on with my strict diet and excercise.

Big mistake. And the stupid thing is, I've made this mistake before. I always tell myself, "Hey, just eat this one little dish to celebrate our success so far. Just diet again tomorrow as if today never happened." That is why I said I suck. Because I never learn.

OKAY.

Enough self-loathing. Let's try this again.

I am currently 178. In the last month I have gained back 9 pounds. Which, honestly, doesn't seem healthy or even possible to me, so I'm going to attribute that huge number to food that's already in my digestive system, because before when I was dieting, I felt very light and empty. Now, since I've been eating like a pig, I'm going to assume that I've got a pound or two worth of food lining my gut. Plus I ate a lot yesterday.

Today, I've been good. Although I've only been awake for an hour. I was tempted to eat last night's left over spaghetti, but there was a box of sliced cucumbers and a bottle of olives right next to it. And, like a good dieter, I picked the cucmbers and olives. :)

I'm going to rewrite my food plan, excercise plan, and timeline, just to give me that last oomph of motivation.

FOOD PLAN:

Morning: 2 tomatoes ahhhh crap. Who cares. I'm too tired. How about I just eat healthy for the next few days and tell you what I ate? That sounds much easier.

As for my timeline, THAT interests me, so here we go.

TIMELINE:

June
Week 4: 178 - 6 = 172

July
Week 1: 172 - 6 = 166
Week 2: 166 - 6 = 160
Week 3: 160 - 6 = 154
Week 4: 154 - 6 = 148

August
Week 1: 148 - 6 = 142
Week 2: 142 - 6 = 136
Week 3: 136 - 6 = 130

Crap. This is gonna take FOREVER. If I had stuck to the diet for the last month, I'd already be half way there. CRAP!!!!!!!!